Question and Hope

“Hope all is well with you too”

And I really do hope so with you too!

That much we can do now. Can’t do more, as much as I want to…

Almost 3 months and I know I made it pretty good having come to this point. Survived.

Not every question we have the answer. For some questions, we have to wait for long time to have the answer. Other question, the answer comes fast, as the blink of an eye. And another question, you have to wait forever for the answer and most likely the answer will not come in this lifetime. You have to accept it.

My question about this story… “What was that? That past two years?”

I do not know when I will find the answer.

Can’t remember how many times I ask God to please help me out from this situation.

I just can’t live the life like this. If until today I can’t change my heart about him, what did I do wrong?

I know, I realize since long ago that I will never be able to do it by my own strength. That’s why I ask God to help me, I ask His grace to help me, enable me to put him back in his old place, just like the old days, before we had story, before he came to my dreams, before I shed tears for him. Hhmm…

Is it hope?

Is it because I still keep a tiny hope in my heart? Even if it is just a very tiny deep down in my heart. Does it make me feel this way until now?

The tiny hope that helps me to keep smiling… even there is no reason to smile about this story?

That’s another question.

And, not every question we have the answer.

I just have to wait…. in expectation.

Wait on God. He is working on it now…

“Hope all is well with you too”

and… keep the hope!

-Last day of August 2011-