The Thing i Never Had

September 09,2014

It is strange, 

that the heart can feel the pain of loosing 

without even have it before. 

Grieving about loosing the thing I never had.

The Story: I Dreamed A Dream

The Story: I Dreamed A Dream: ..... but there are dreams  that cannot be and there are storms we cannot weather... ...scared that I am dreaming a same dream.......

I Dreamed A Dream

.....but there are dreams that cannot be

and there are storms we cannot weather...

...scared that I am dreaming a same dream....
...scared to feel this feeling that make me smile...

--Les Miserable (August 2014)

5 Years!

... and five years later

Today, five years ago

Dear God,
Never thought before that that story will last for five years.
And even more... never thought that it would be that hurt. 

So, here I am.
Five years later.

One Of Those Days

One of those days…

Feeling blue.

And this blue feeling come just out of the blue.

Remember him and everything that have happened in the past 5 years.

FIVE Years!!

And I survived.

Hurt, bleeding out but survived.

It's now a memory.

It's now really time to move on.

I understand there will be times when I will look back and see the story and remember that hard journey.

I hope it would be the time when I thank God for the grace.

Even I might never know the reason why He let it happen.

I hope every morning I wake up I will find new grace & peace in my heart.

Another grace for Another day.